Hat-ical Meme

From nutter4

I am a Top-hat. I'm a bit of a jack-of-all-trades; creative, in a stylistic sort of way, a little vain, a little dark, perhaps a little archaic. I get on alright with people, but I can take them or leave them. What Sort of Hat Are You?

So Much

Well, quick purge and then a hot bath with a christmas present Lush bath bomb (from my perceptive sister) called "Cerridwens Cauldron" which smells gorgeous.

Email from Charlie saying that after careful consideration he is going to have to say 'no' to the divorce. It said a number of other choice things about being surprised that I should want to be on my own given my bad self-image, he thinks that I should want to have anyone around me and that he wasn't giving up without a fight. He's on my blocked senders list now.

I'm fairly drained and exhausted, the idea of having to go through a fight just makes me want to cry. I emailed Airpages lawyer in Bozeman, MT with a synopsis of what I wanted and asked for a quote for a standard 'hostile' divorce involving no blame.

I did get in contact with old_crone who is going to help me with a psychic seperation this weekend, I am very sure that, whether accidentally or on purpose I am under attack, possibly from both mother and son, I don't feel comfortable trying to meditate when I can't get into my safe space and I have no shielding or way to put any up.

In other news, many *rocking hugs and tons of love from me to nutter4, preest and anyone else suffering from the terrible lurg-monster which is going around.

Amazing Restorative

A bath is an amazing thing. I spent the better part of an hour, drifting by candlelight through a Giltrap-led 'meditation', the scent of the bath was subtle enough that nothing really disturbed my brain, I lay thinking about the mental pictures the music evoked in me and ended up telling myself a little story which had the effect of shutting off the nasty bit of my brain and allowing the peaceful bit to control things for a while.

If anyone ever should want gift ideas for me, Lush bath melt 'Cerridwens Cauldron' (nutter4 I was wrong it was a melt not a bomb) or in fact anything else dreamy and scent-filled would be fab.

For now I go to watch Starship Troopers and have a glass of something creamy.