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Hmmm, Posting
May. 7th, 2009 08:50 pm...
Well, life is currently being quite 'interesting'
From the point of view that I have no patience for anything, not for the rambling attention-seeking oddness that is our new online Meeting Place, not for the bosses at work lamenting having to fly premium economy instead of economy, not for the whiners going to conference, not even for my regular online haunts.
I took my last pill today so some form of normality should be returning, but for now I feel sorta grumpy and like I could do with a good few hours of cuddling for one of those really great oxytocin highs. I also feel angry, not something I experience often, angry at people who are rubbish at counting their blessings, angry and things going wrong, angry at my own shortcomings and angry at my need to post about them.
There are a few people whos posts in forums I often skim, I know they will be filled with self-pitying whining and complaints about how hard their lives are, how poor they are and etc. I also know that they swing and roundabout between moods like they're attached in the middle by a bungee, I also know that the poor ones will soon be raving about the next gadget, the next fancy schmancy thing they own because they "just had to have it" while not paying their electric bill and whining about getting cut off.
I'm not perfect, I don't aspire to be. I could manage what money I have better, I'm sure I could use a little PMA adjustment every once in a while, but compared to these people I'm a rich little miss sunshine all the time. Does it cost anything when someone asks how you are to say "brilliant thanks" or "I'm great" just to make a change from the litany of "fine" or a list of all the things that could be better? I work with a load of sad sacks as well, if I ask the question "how are you?" it's because I'm interested, I'm not passing the time of day, I don't expect the response "ok I suppose" you suppose? if you don't know then who does? and would it kill you to sprinkle a bit of positivity into your day? Sometimes things suck and they can overwhelm everything else in your brains "field of vision" but seriously, if you always concentrate on the downer it'll be even harder to quirk the edges of that mouth into a smile when you feel like it.
So, I beg you all, if someone asks you how you are tomorrow, reply with the words "I'm tip-top-tastic thanks" or "I'm fabulous" with a big smile at them, then tell them one positive thing going on in your life and just watch the effect. I've caused someone to walk backwards into a printer at the effusiveness of my reply before now, it's both nice and incredibly sad to see the amazed responses I get.
What are we becomming?
Well, life is currently being quite 'interesting'
From the point of view that I have no patience for anything, not for the rambling attention-seeking oddness that is our new online Meeting Place, not for the bosses at work lamenting having to fly premium economy instead of economy, not for the whiners going to conference, not even for my regular online haunts.
I took my last pill today so some form of normality should be returning, but for now I feel sorta grumpy and like I could do with a good few hours of cuddling for one of those really great oxytocin highs. I also feel angry, not something I experience often, angry at people who are rubbish at counting their blessings, angry and things going wrong, angry at my own shortcomings and angry at my need to post about them.
There are a few people whos posts in forums I often skim, I know they will be filled with self-pitying whining and complaints about how hard their lives are, how poor they are and etc. I also know that they swing and roundabout between moods like they're attached in the middle by a bungee, I also know that the poor ones will soon be raving about the next gadget, the next fancy schmancy thing they own because they "just had to have it" while not paying their electric bill and whining about getting cut off.
I'm not perfect, I don't aspire to be. I could manage what money I have better, I'm sure I could use a little PMA adjustment every once in a while, but compared to these people I'm a rich little miss sunshine all the time. Does it cost anything when someone asks how you are to say "brilliant thanks" or "I'm great" just to make a change from the litany of "fine" or a list of all the things that could be better? I work with a load of sad sacks as well, if I ask the question "how are you?" it's because I'm interested, I'm not passing the time of day, I don't expect the response "ok I suppose" you suppose? if you don't know then who does? and would it kill you to sprinkle a bit of positivity into your day? Sometimes things suck and they can overwhelm everything else in your brains "field of vision" but seriously, if you always concentrate on the downer it'll be even harder to quirk the edges of that mouth into a smile when you feel like it.
So, I beg you all, if someone asks you how you are tomorrow, reply with the words "I'm tip-top-tastic thanks" or "I'm fabulous" with a big smile at them, then tell them one positive thing going on in your life and just watch the effect. I've caused someone to walk backwards into a printer at the effusiveness of my reply before now, it's both nice and incredibly sad to see the amazed responses I get.
What are we becomming?
